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So yesterday the whole psychology class did a little test quizzical thing and at the bottom it added up and i had 10 for E and 0 for I. I was like woah, cause compared to Jenny, she had like 7 extrovert and 3 introvert. So I learned today that extroverts tends to get energy from interacting with others and are often gregarious (introverts do talk to people but they have a certain extent where they have to be alone to recharge or get their energy). The dangers of being an extrovert is that since they spend a lot of their time outside and with others, they build a lot of trust with many people and attach themselves to others. Evidently extreme extroverts will attach an immense amount of value to an object (could be a person). They become obsessed with this object and would do anything to please this object. If they were to lose this object then they would probably lose themselves. With this, they lose all self-respect. I had 10 for extrovert. I am an extreme extrovert. I am scared as hell. I’ve lost my self-respect and most importantly I almost lost a friend. Things may seem bad for now but as Thi has told me today “There are always ups and there are downs.” My up is that my cycle is beginning anew, I don’t know why this happens but I’m glad that it does happen every time, immediately after I’m down. I’m glad to know that there is something or someone watching over me. Whether its God, Jesus, Buddha, Dhalsim, Ryu, Spiderman, or just the ever benevolent spirit of the world. For now however I am an extrovert, maktub. (Yea, maktub, I went there lol).

Hello, I usually have stuff to talk about but today is just, well nothing is coming to me so I’m just going to talk about my day. Today I woke up tired at around 7. Anthony came over like usual and tumbled on tumblr. ( lol tumblr is not a word ) I took a shower and saw that he has made me a sandwich only to find out that it wasn’t as delicious as i thought it would be. It was the most dry sandwich ever. On the way to school, Anthony noticed that this dude next to me was totally checking out my sandwich and I laughed. Throughout the first few classes I decided to draw Thi flowers instead of giving cause I wanted to practice drawing. After a sunflower and a Victorybell (pokemon reference) I drew random stuff like a potato xD. (POTATOES IS PLANTS I DUNT CUARE WAT U’S PPL SAY I BE WRITE). Meh im too lazy to type the rest of my day but now im home and uhh yea.

The life of the wife is ended my the knife. My emotional pain and anguish could only be derived from myself. All this time such anger I believed was from everyone else. I framed everyone else for my own catastrophe. I never anticipated for such an eruption of truth to be unraveled in my face. My very ignorance and egocentric behavior has pushed others away. This has always pushed people away why do I always fall into this pattern? Whenever I meet someone I like or in fact everyone I meet I would push them away. I claim that my wall is down but I guess I have another one behind it just for my own protection. As for the girl of other posts, I don’t know what to do. I have two choices which are to either push her away like everyone else or grow some balls and do something. Aside from that maybe some day ill end my life with a knife, a rusty butter knife.

There is a belief among psychologists called the 7%-38%-55% Rule. This principle breaks down how human beings understand information during an emotional exchange. Simply put, the theory postulates that when somebody is speaking only seven percent of their emotions are displayed in the words they say, while roughly 38 percent of their emotional intent can be derived from the tone of their voice and a surprising 55 percent comes from physical cues such as body language and facial expressions. What we say isn’t what we’re saying; it’s how we’re saying it that states our true meaning.

“The point is, I have people I can count on. I’ll make it through” - Sera

I really want to thank my friends for their help to make me feel better; Chris, Jug Bir, Tam and especially you Mariel. Thank you for helping. Well as of now I’m going to take a break. This has been an experience that killed me, mostly it was my fault >_> aside from that, it’s back to video games for now.